Sunday, October 31, 2010

I promised myself to write regularly . . . But Happy Halloween.

Another one of those lies I told myself -- but I won't beat myself up about it, and since the month of October isn't quite over, I didn't miss the month.  Happy Halloween.

I bought candy today hoping to see some of the children in my building.  I walked around the neighborhood today and saw them -- Adorable.

I don't have many memories of Halloween from my childhood.  I wonder why.  Weight was always such an issue in my family and so candy wasn't allowed.  Gosh -- I have always promised myself that if I'm lucky enough to have my own children I will never do this to them.  I'm not even a big candy eater -- give me a bag of Doritos and I'm a happy girl.  Chips and dip are my thing.  French fries -- okay, this is making me hungry.  I'll stop.

And I am working on stopping the focus on the thoughts of what wasn't -- what was missed.  I am about half way through my life (more or less I guess) and I want the rest of it to be about being happy and fulfilled.  What was is over -- I can't change it. I can decide not to allow those who aren't positive in my life to not be a part of it.  It isn't an easy process but I want those with me who allow me to enjoy a bit of candy once in a while if I want it.  I want to be with those who will enjoy the french fries with me and then we can take a wonderful walk in the park to work it off.

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