Is it always a mistake? I think not.

I'm not sure why but the men in my life always seem to come back to me.  I should be flattered really.  They don't forget me.  Sadly, they don't seem to want to choose me from the start for the long haul, but they come back -- in one way or another.

This weekend I spent time with a former love.  This is a man who came into my life during a time of GREAT transition.  Actually, he seems to appear when I am in transition.  We met 7 years ago.  I recall the evening.  I was waiting to watch "Sex and the City" and was online on Match.com looking for my true love.  Up popped an IM -- a man from EU -- did I mention I've been the UN of dating . . .  name the country -- it's most likely I've dated a man from there.  I have to admit I have something for the Aussie men, but I digress.

He was in town on business and we met for a drink.  I had a great time and spent the rest of his time together in the City.

The rest doesn't really matter -- we were on again - off again -- on again . . .  and then it ended for good (or so I thought).  And then within a year I fell in love with someone else (oh yeah -- that didn't work either -- more posts to come).

So what's the point to all of this -- well, DB (that's what I'll call him) came back AGAIN!  And I saw his this past weekend.  "Hey, how about dinner and a movie?" he said.  Why not?!  I liked him enough before, and yes, he broke my heart, but it has been 3 years, my heart has been destroyed since, and I have questions -- many questions.  I want to ask WHY and "what the hell were you thinking?"  And then the big one "Why NOT me?"

Could I go through with it?  Could I really ask?  Do I really want to hear the answers?

I met him at his hotel, we went to dinner and it was lovely.   He's a good guy -- really.  It's why I liked him to start -- that didn't change.  He's funny and smart.  I actually waited quite a bit to spring all the questions on him.  But I did it.  And honestly it wasn't so bad.  The truth is we're FRIENDS -- and so I could ask.  He's in love with someone else.  He has a life with her.  And I am very happy for him.  He's not the one for me in the end.

The rest of the night was a blast.  We had a great weekend and I am so glad I agreed to spend time with him.  He will always be a friend and I will always cherish him.  DB is a good man.  He's a part of my life and although once again he came into my life at a time of immense transition, I know this time it was all for the best.  I know I'm not in love with the idea of him anymore.  I've moved on.  And I will have good memories forever.  So thank you DB for the life lessons.  XOX